It was from Her.
We were engaged, a five year relationship from the dark, distant past. Six years is an awfully long time to be silent. And for a few minutes of my typical verbal introspective, I actually had in mind my response to her, as I mentally prepare all written expression long before I actually put fingers to keyboard.
But no. I just can't do it.
She is from my past and needs to stay there, it took me long enough to deal with what happened in my mind and that little genie is not coming out of that bottle. This girl in her leaving had a starring role in the so far pivotal drama of my life. The part of urban Tokyo played by yours truly while She helmed the role of Godzilla with great aplomb.
Curiosity does tempt me though... what if in six long years she has changed? That she has abandoned her former self-centered ways or even if she has been saved? What then? Questions to toy with in my mind.
What concerns me perhaps even more is that she was able to locate me (even if it was only my e-mail address). I value my anonymity highly, I cherish it. And I do not like it intruded upon save for what I chose to disclose and to whom. (The internet notwithstanding, no one reads any of this.)
Go back to the shadows Aimee.
2 comments:
Sorry. I don't think there's anything I can say that will help. There's only One who knows your heart & hers. Only One can help you with this. Good luck.
Wow. That's crazy. I don't even know what to say. I would have no idea what to do in that situation. What did she say?? Did she give any explanation for the random contact after so long?
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